Power of distance.

Memey miss you very much[honestly]

Bismillahirohmanirahim..

Another article by this far away girl.

its been more than a month since i last saw my beautiful people.

My family, My friends and my....well...beloved (with him, i guess its been more than 2months i last saw him)

My parents never wanted me to come home often. but they will surely be happy when i did.

the worst part is that i have been sick for the whole month, i have been in and out of hospitals and for that period i heard cries from my mom and my beloved. and it was painful for me not because the pain i bear, but for the pain that they have to bear for me. all they can do is pray from far. I never realize that they were heartache for not being at my side at the moment.

Mum wanted me to come home and have treatment for my health as our family doc suspect that my apendix is infected and because of my stubbornness to take blood test to prove, doc kept on giving me high dosage of gastrix medicine.

lets not get into that 'health part'..

well the point is i couldnt express enough of how guilty i am towards all these people that i cherish so much. i gave them problems because of my work, yes i was selfish ! i dont want them to worry that much, and just be happy, hearing ibu cried that moment really break my wall of strength ! and recently when she say for the first time ; ' its been more than a month since we last saw you. why dont you come back this weekend PLEASE , we miss you..' they dont know how hard i try to hide my tears until the phone was hang up! arghh! im guilty! Having AHM really made me grew stronger... i miss this guy too.. but distance have its way!

i miss my friends especially my pet family suzie and syafiqa!! they really know how to make my day!! aww i really love them! ok enough before i start having river running down my cheeks!

Conclusion; how am i going to tell them, im not going to come home this week nor next week or even the semester break! i have to finish up a lot of SIFING! our competition is just around the corner and there's plenty to do! not to mention my assignments!!ok too much crap =.='' huh i better get working! social hour exceeded!  i hope they understand and never get tired of waiting for me :) i love you guys very very very very much [grammatically its wrong but the expression is so correct]

~PRAY BELIEVE PATIENT ~